Merry...Me.

Can't even believe it's now been over a year since I proposed to you last Christmas Eve. 

2012 brought us months and months of wedding planning, which turned into the best day of my life so far.

It also brought us an amazing honeymoon to the place we've always talked about going to together. Hawaii was just as beautiful as I imagined and I had a blast with you. Snorkeling, hiking, zip-lining, beach days, and more. Followed by an amazing trip with two of our best friends, it was a perfect trip. (Too bad my sweet nose ring got infected though.) :( 

Another element 2012 has given us is the wonderful opportunity to work together every day at a job we both adore.

 I cannot get enough of you, and you were made for working with our kids. It always makes me chuckle to myself every time people say we're going to get sick of each other because I don't believe that's possible. I cherish every minute I can spend with you. 

Merry late Christmas, babe. I love you more than I can say. Always.
-Sam

Last Two.

I love your eyes, nose, lips, smile, ears, and cheeks. I love your FACE.

I love how inappropriate you can be. (Most of the time.)

I love how we met.

I love that Hawaii is your favorite place and that we FINALLY get to go there TOGETHER in 2 WEEKS!

I love how much you love Halloween.

I love that you said yes.

Two Late Days In One

I love how you exaggerate every story.

I love that you got me into loving sushi.

I love how much fun you are.

I love that you're intuitive to people's feelings. (You're a J.)

I love that you're always changing, whether it be your look or your OUTlook...on life.

I love your potato toes.

Sorry it's late, Love!

I love how much you love kids, and I like how you deal with tough situations involving kids.

I can't stress enough how much I LOVE watching you dance. You are amazingly gifted at dancing.

I love to hike. You love to hike. We love to hike together.....Thank goodness.

Third Day Thankfulness...

You're great with people.

You are a diligent, loyal, responsible worker for any job you have.

I love that you love to travel as much as I do.

Second Day Gratitude

I love your taste in music.

                            I love that you're vegan.....most of the time.

                                      I love that you face your fears for me.

For Weese's 26th...

It's almost my fiancee's 26th birthday, and it will be the 7th birthday I've shared with her. I'm going to list three things I love about her every day until her birthday on July 22nd. I love you, Weesie!

You've always supported and encouraged my dream of acting. 

I appreciate that more than you know.

You motivate me to stay active and healthy.

And you're not afraid to get dirty, I love that.

Your favorite holiday is the 4th of July and you love a good fireworks show.

I feel lucky every day that you're mine.

Just a few thoughts

We are now down to 32 days, which is absolute insanity! We have accomplished a lot in the last week and hope to do a lot more this week. I have finished a lot of my summer school and have less than half way to go, believe it or not somehow I'm getting really good grades. There are a lot of emotions in the air and a lot of the same conversations keep reoccurring.

We keep talking about how lucky we are that there are so many people from out of town coming to the wedding. There are quite a few coming from Oregon, some from Washington, Texas, California, Virginia, southern Utah and even some from New York! I'm sure there are even more states than the ones I have named, but this gives you an idea. We feel so much support and love because we know it's not cheap or easy to do what they are doing. We cannot wait to see everyone and for them to share this big day with us!!!

We also have quite the support system right here in our own little state. We have had an outpouring of helping hands whether it be with loaning equipment, decorations, vendors discounting, helping on the big day and even money. Seriously, we could never have imagined people would be so wonderful. Thank you to everyone.

Now I must say this has been a very positive experience for us, but there have been tears. The hardest thing for me and probably for Sam too, is not having all of our families there. We understand some just can't, like my cute sister and her family in Kauai since they will have a new baby, (we have made arrangements so they can tune in via Skype!) but some are choosing not to. This isn't to point fingers and tell them how horrible I think they are, I'm just sad. I'm sad not all of our siblings will be there, both immediate and in-laws and that not a single one of our nieces and nephews will be there.They are my life. I would do anything for them. I hope one day they know how much both Sam and I wanted them there. How badly we wish they were our flower girls and ring bearers.

I'm so excited to marry Sam. She is so wonderful. I have no idea how I am going to put into words what I feel for her in my vows. Especially after following the one and only Carol Lynn Pearson. Maybe I'll have to take my best man's advice, he'll recite while I do some sort of interpretive dance.

I Love My Love

Today started off as a bad day for me. I had a super difficult time waking up, moved too slowly - therefore making my friends leave later than desired to the Pride Parade, and Elise and I had a minor tiff on the way home from the parade. That made my mood go further down, on top of the heat. We go to the store and she says a comment to me that I took personally when I shouldn't have and from then on I couldn't get back up. I let myself be miserable, thereby affecting those around me with my sour mood. I avoided talking to Elise, looking at her, and being social at all. I wasted the rest of my day - and now I'm regretting it.
I love my fiancee so much, and I hate wasting the time I have with her. Let me direct this to you, in fact, Weese. Each moment I have with you means the world to me. This lifetime is not even close to enough time with you, I am CRAZY about you. When I do things like I did today, it is a waste, and I am so sorry I let it happen. I'm working on trying to come out of my "moods" quicker each time, but it is a constant challenge for me. I hope you can continue to be patient with me, and tolerate my flaws. I love you more than anything in this life, you are my other half and best friend. Tomorrow will be better.
I love you, love you, love you.