If you know me at all, you probably know one of my biggest downfalls is being a control freak. I like to think I have improved but I still find myself getting anxious or uncomfortable with things that are beyond my control. Three weeks ago tomorrow I decided I wanted to quit drinking coffee when my dentist informed me that it would discolor my teeth. (Duh, one of those things I knew but I guess I needed someone with a Doctorate to tell me.) I decided I wanted to go off coffee until the wedding was over and by then I could decide if I wanted to start drinking it again.
I figured I just loved coffee, but didn't NEED coffee. I quickly discovered I was wrong after a few days with severe headaches and fatigue. I made it 2 weeks and then the thought of sitting through a 3 hour class being lectured seemed like too much to handle without coffee! I got an iced mocha. It was amazing. I made up my mind that I wasn't going to completely give up, it was just a treat and I wanted to continue to go without. Well today I got another coffee, it's almost a week since my last one.
If I have control over anything it's what I put in my body and how I take care of it. I choose to eat healthy or not, I choose to drink coffee or not and I choose to go running or not. There are some things in life that are beyond my control (as much as I hate to admit) and this isn't one of them. If I choose to drink coffee then it's my decision. I guess what I'm getting at is if I want coffee once a week or every two weeks then I can, if that's what I want. Maybe I'm typing in a moment of weakness, but I just love coffee. It makes me happy.
Did I mention I'm back to being vegan? :-)